Published by Viking Juvenile on January 27, 2015
Cody and Meg were inseparable.Two peas in a pod.Until . . . they weren’t anymore. When her best friend Meg drinks a bottle of industrial-strength cleaner alone in a motel room, Cody is understandably shocked and devastated. She and Meg shared everything—so how was there no warning? But when Cody travels to Meg’s college town to pack up the belongings left behind, she discovers that there’s a lot that Meg never told her. About her old roommates, the sort of people Cody never would have met in her dead-end small town in Washington. About Ben McAllister, the boy with a guitar and a sneer, who broke Meg’s heart. And about an encrypted computer file that Cody can’t open—until she does, and suddenly everything Cody thought she knew about her best friend’s death gets thrown into question. I Was Here is Gayle Forman at her finest, a taut, emotional, and ultimately redemptive story about redefining the meaning of family and finding a way to move forward even in the face of unspeakable loss.
I seem to have a way of finding intriguing yet depressing books and this is one that is both of those. Gayle Forman is an author I have loved before so I’ve been meaning to read her other books and finally picked one up. Cody is wondering what led her best friend Meg to suicide and she starts to investigate her death on her own, leading her to a website that encourages people on their journey to decide to commit suicide. On the way, she discovers a love interest of her own, her own emotional path of why suicide, and really rethinking her friendship with Meg and how everything went wrong.
I love this journey for Cody, there’s obviously no bringing back Meg, just a journey of understanding, she wants to find a bad guy but in the end, she has to realize what Meg was going through. Sometimes there’s no correct answer, no fixing something, just moving forward. I love the relationship aspect too, the off and on between the guy who doesn’t seem quite right for her, but might just be. I definitely cried at moments in this book and would highly recommend the audiobook but be prepared to ugly cry in your car if you commute while listening.
A beautifully written book about discovering truth and also a horrendous story about the aftermath of suicide. I hope in these troubled times if anyone is having these thoughts they can seek help if they need it from those they love or professionals.