Published by Arthur A. Levine Books on March 28, 2017
Ben Carver is back to normal. He’s getting all As in his classes at the Natick School. He was just elected captain of the baseball team. He’s even won a big scholarship for college, if he can keep up his grades. All that foolishness with Rafe Goldberg last semester is over now, and he just needs to be a Carver, work hard, and stay focused.
There’s Hannah, a gorgeous girl who attracts him and distracts him. There’s his mother, whose quiet unhappiness he’s noticing for the first time. School is harder, the pressure higher, the scholarship almost slipping away. And there’s Rafe, funny, kind, dating someone else…and maybe the real normal that Ben needs.
Wow just wow. It’s been a while since a book hit me so hard. I read Openly Straight, openly honestly yesterday and then this one today and I love these people with every fiber of my being. Toby is one of the bravest, amazing interesting human I have ever encountered. I also adore Alfie-gaga he is just so unapologetically himself and I totally see why him and Toby are best friends. I would die for a book about the two of them just playing scanner pong and Toby learning more about his gender-fluidness. I of course adore Ben and Rafe, I think I prefer Ben just cause I can relate to him more. He brings up this beautiful point about how people feel a need to put others into boxes and they don’t like it when people push back against that and I have felt like that my entire life. Any time I tell anyone that I don’t have a specific label on my sexuality they try to put one on me. I always just say I fall in love with the person not the gender. Anyways these books are so beautiful and the people in them are too. I say people because they feel real to me like I can really imagine them out there in the world. I hope their happy.
Verdict: This book is a true joy to read and I think its a book that will stay with me for a very long time. 5/5 stars.